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Alias: Kath
AIM SN: HotVelvetDamn
I am above (or willing to pretend to be above) the age of fifteen: Y
Prior RP experience: blah blah blah blah blah blah
Character Wanted: Yamanaka Ino
What's Wrong With 'Em: Short answer? Schizophrenia, attributable to 1. genetics and 2. her family technique; the jutsu basically fractures the sense of self until the self cannot tell thought from speech, or their native body from the bodies of others. "Which one am I?" and "am I you?" and "this one is hugging her brother, right, or is that me is that this one" are very common questions.
Long answer? The Mind-Body Switch Jutsu passed down in her family is not an advanced blood technique. However, schizophrenia has shown signs of a genetic link, and this lovely family trait makes the lovely family trick easier to perform. Excessive use of the jutsu (as is common in wartime) causes a splintering of one's sense of self. Essentially, identity becomes a nebulous, nearly meaningless concept. To Ino, there is very little difference between what she herself says and what is said to her.
Quick Summary of their Recent History (past six years): When Chouji died, Ino pushed herself forward, volunteering for more missions, actively trying to get her name bumped up. She wanted to be out in the field, getting revenge for her teammate.
It only took six months for the effects to show. It started with disorientation ("I could have sworn I was over there a minute ago"), moved on into moments of severe mental disturbance ("I'm in you. Right now. You don't even know it. You might be me."), and finally the self began to show real signs of splintering. She began to avoid crowds ("I lose track of myself, I forget which one's me and which ones aren't me and I don't know if I'm in anybody"), began to avoid contact with others, but didn't retreat from the field, so all the time, that jutsu was just making things worse.
She is now on permanent leave.
Summary of Their Personality:
On the great days, Ino is very much herself. She can be extremely vain ("I have to be the prettiest, that way I'll know which one's me"-- is she joking, or serious? It's up to the others to decide), she's pushy, she's full of life and laughs and yes, there is something that drives her. She still regulates her diet.
Nobody's ever sure where the line between a good day or a bad day is. She spends the entire day laughing, because it strikes her as funny and sad, how people treat each other, and she knows the truth, you see, about all the differences (or lack of differences) in people because she goes inside people. She's wrong and she's crazy and she's insisting that anybody could be her, she could be anybody, identity is interchangeable-- but she's happy. Is that a good day, or a bad day?
And then there are the days where she's lucid. She knows and understands who and what she is. She will be medicated for the rest of her life. She will never fight beside Shikamaru again, and there is no way that the milkman could ever be Chouji, because people aren't interchangeable. Bodies aren't masks, aren't clothes; you don't wear a body the way you wear shoes. On those days, she's sad and she's screaming and yes, she gets angry. Are those bad days, because they hurt the most, or are they good days, because she's lucid?
The really awful days, though, those are pretty obvious. She doesn't know "which one" she is. She becomes afraid to move, afraid to look around, because what if she sees other people and forgets again? Most of the time, when she's quiet, it's because she thought she already said it; on these days, though, she's quiet because she's afraid of words. She wants neither to speak nor to listen, or to even be in the presence of another person.
Oh yeah, and she's in you. She's in you right now.
Roleplay Sample (At least 100 words):
((Sadly enough, I think all of Ino's scenes will be cracktastic like this.))
The world around her is (is? Was? Will be?) a tilt-a-whirl of faces and bodies. But she is in the one she was born in, she thinks. Maybe. Which ones are moving because the street is carrying them, and which one (ones?) is (are?) moving because she wants it (them) to? Are those her legs (they're good legs, she thinks, if those aren't her legs she should find a way to make her legs look like that) that are moving, or are they somebody else's legs that she is moving for them?
"Ino?" Shikamaru asks, because he's Shikamaru and afraid (she only thinks this; she has no idea if it's really true, true like something you'd write on a mirror, because he hides everything behind his face, hides it so well she wouldn't know even if she was inside him) to ask her if she's okay.
The answer is always no. No, she's not okay, sometimes she forgets that she's Yamanaka Ino and not Haruno Sakura in the Chuunin exams when they were thirteen. Sometimes she thinks the old woman by the noodleshop is Yamanaka Ino, or that she's inside someone when she isn't, and sometimes she laughs and laughs and tells Shikamaru the truth.
"I could be you," she tells him, but she is really telling the world. "I could be you."
His voice and his words are careful. He doesn't want to hurt her any worse (not that she really knows that for true, but she thinks she's right, even if she has no way of knowing). "I know you could."
"I won't, though, because if I'm you, then who's me? And what if I'm not very good at being you? If you're not you, then how will I find you and make you be you again?"
"I don't know," he says, and he has so much, so much, locked up inside his eyes. She can see it all almost poking out and she wants to be inside him so she can make him say it, but if she goes inside him then he won't be there and she'll lose it and then she'll forget what she wanted to do. "I don't know, Ino, so just don't go being me or anybody else anymore, because nobody but Ino would make a good Ino and a bad Ino would--" a pause, these are his words, these are his words and they are just for her, "would be a drag."
And so she promises she'll stay in this one, because who else could be Yamanaka Ino?
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